thoughts: group assignments.

i'm left in waiting mode for i think 45 minutes so i decided to blog about group asisgnment which i am doing right now. i guess for anyone of you whoever work with anybody at all which you obviously did by now will definitely recognize that in any particular group, there will be one that stops the track. there will be one that is held under the captivity of negativity(lolol reference from t-bag). hence lets just put it direct coz its my blog. there will be one that is fucked up.

i had this conversation with a white boy named kin yew and he told me that in his experience in his college group assignemnts, he has this one friend that sticks to him. ps. its a code in life where you must have something sticking to you in order to lean on. ok so anyways he told me yea he's cool together, in class were together but really in terms of working with him, he's horrible man. first of all he's not fluent in writing and really he's just a burden.so i ask him what he did? did he tell him? well he wanted to but eventually he kinda pity him coz he has nobody and etc etc. and he's a nicer guy than i am.

this is the problem with college assignments man. you just had this one bad group mate that you don't want to stick around and really my requirements is not too high for a group mate you know. if you can work and write and be able to contribute then yea. but if you don't, what good are you? its not some kinda company where there's hr department and shit and its not like being the leader of an assignment gives you the power to fire off someone. no you can't. and telling to lecturer will totally not work. coz they are sort of the client and they don't and do not need to care what shit goes off behind the curtain. and this is the problem that i'm having. (i didin't tell the lecture. thats a loser move)

so what happens if you tell that person off? are you gonna live your college life in lesser comfort? coz lets be honest, friction is bound to occur if you would've ditch that person. its sort of like "hey we can be friends but we can't work together" i mean yea i would do that but its sort of revolving people around you and you don't want them to go to college feeling uncomfortable. i mean i would fuck it but still a certain amount of ease will definitely be gone. and next year is my final year...and i think i'm ready to do whatever it takes just to get what i want and what i don't want...coz i'm just that kinda person.

thoughts: people with music

this post generally divides people who listens to music into two categories.... rock(rock metal, hard shit you know) and pop (those sad love songs and sadder content songs).there's a special friend of mine who made a comment similar to this saying, if i listen to more of those heavy music, it could make me more hot tempered, increase high blood pressure, you know basically leading to more messed up scenarios. and i beg to differ and this is where the post starts....*rock music playing da da da da da dam dam da du du du du du deeeeeee(pinch harmonics)(can you tell thats the new avenged sevenfold song that is coming out along with the album?)

i would totally think that this post is written from a non-buyers perspective. trust me...my fellow readers....trust me. i would love to begin with rock.one general perception over this genre of music is that its noise. and that bugs the shit out of me each time when i ask or people ask me bout rock music from the pop world. "its noisy" NO its not. do you even have ear? your not supposed to listen to only the singer's voice man. but everything as a whole. and if you would take that in, you would find its a pretty good tool to release your anger. stress whatever shit you know. now rock music imo totally lets a person have their own private time to like you know"fuck this shit". let every anger or emotion that you have out. and usually its only that time where you could see us people having that attitude. i think we are generally the more calmed and seeing things from a logical perspective instead of getting emo-ed up person. its only this genre that provides you lines like "we're all gonna die, so lets get high"," i was told to stay away, those two words i can't obey" you know and etc etc etica.

now if we move towards the other side, pop, usually, music listeners of genre prefer more ballad stuff. and hey i love ballads too. it sounds good and all. but really this genre and this type of music really makes you emo-ed up even more. i would say listening to more of these sad love songs, makes you sad even more, get frustrated over little things that don't really matter much and you know.....drama. the word sums everything up. as much as i love carrie underwood, damn most of her songs are like saying how could you treat me this way, or the korean song, i'm so stupid. those songs are nice, but it really makes a person even more messed up than ever. alright think bout this, you got one person that listens to "dear, am i not good enough for you?" and then you got the otherside world that has this"honey your not that good for me". and whats worst is that, when pop songs write something that cheers themselves up, it always seems horrible for the guys. like..big girls don't cry. can you imagine that shit if a guy sings that song? the song is nice but its really not for the dudes. even if its backstreet boys who are singing songs like that.

to conclude, i can't see anyone who listens to rock shit gets more emo or messed up than people who listens to pop. and yet we(heavy music listeners) are dubbed the trouble ones. say what?that makes no sense. in the scenario of us rocking out , pop listeners amplified their emoness when they are listening to their songs. and then it take them exceptionally long to wake up from it. and maybe someone write songs like "i will survive" then only they wake up....and then only they know.

thoughts: 21st birthday.

thats it. no more a(udio)logs. fuck that shit. anyways... whats the big deal with people and their 21st birthdays? note that i don't mean to talk bad about anyone who might be having thier own 21st birthday and etc. i mean practically everybody talks bout doing something huge on their 21st birthday? why 21st? is it because you reach adulthood thats why it calls for a bigger celebration? is it because you get the key in life? well personally from my non partying lifestyle ways, i think 21st birthday shouldn't be about having lots of people eating with you and dancing towards pitbulls horrible shitty single and yea other stuff like getting drunk. tell you the truth, i never throw a single party in my life so far. i'm just not too into that. but really, its like the next day you wake up after your big ole party, what are you gonna do? its just gonna be an ordinary day. posting pictures on facebook...replying shitty comments on facebook, dota etc etica etica. heck you haven't even finish college by then so really whats the point?

now there's a reason why i'm writing this. there's always a reason and there's always something to write. yea i'm not talking bout people shouldn't throw parties or its lame to think of something big because your hitting 21. i'm just writing this because i'm having pressure from people around me who are turning 21. all of them are like making it big like its their sweet 16 parties. even my best friend told me he wants to do something big like playing guitar in front a bunch of people and i gotta do it with him. i was like wo wo wo..its not a wedding. its just your 21st time being reborn again into the nightmare of aging. quite frankly if and when people ask me , so hey vincent what you plan to do on your 21st birthday? i'll say...whatever(fullstop)and yea people who bring their parties into a club and getting wasted? brilliant. thats how you celebrate birthdays!

also. whats with chinese people and casinos? i'm telling you man in life (in malaysia) no matter who you are or what you are, your bound to hear this."i'm gonna go to genting's casino on my 21st birthday". what is so magical bout that place that almost every single fucking chinese wants to go there when they hit double decades and a 1? i just don't get it. what kinda word of mouth marketing scam did lim go tong figured out before he opened that place? "hmm i'm gonna slowly spread the word that its a custom to go to genting's casino when they are 21 and "win" some money"....""of course its ME who is WINNING.....HAHAHHA(evil laugh)"...*pray to those little ghost underground*.whatever it is he's a genius to trick young minds into giving him some greens.

so i wanna know...what did you do for your 21st birthday or what are you gonna do for your 21st birthday?