Monday, October 11, 2010

thoughts: hi last one.

i. am. done. with. blogging.

this blog will still be around as an incase.

here's a few people i wanna thank. my readers.

wei jian

yit yee

chun kiat

gapnap.

hahaha 4 only. worthwhile worthwhile.

see you around in your blogs.

Friday, October 1, 2010

music: is crabcore bigger than just attack attack!?



holy fuck i thought it was a one band thing.

the word alive practices it too no way! yea in boredom mode again

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

thoughts: time and haiz

hi. i'm tired. its 7 am. not that i couldn't sleep its just that i'm too hungry to fall asleep. so i went downstairs and ate some hi fibre crackers and hi protein milk to kill my starvation. also its a good choice of meal for my diet where i am constantly trying to cut my body fat. so yea i'm pretty much waiting for the crackers uh remainings or melted dough to not get stuck in my teeth so that i can go back to bed again. yea i know. i could've brushed my teeth. i DOWAN!
ps. i'm pretty tired so i don't exactly know what i exactly wrote and i'm too lazy to edit my shit.

so yea i wanna talk about things that turns the shit out of me off. actually i could just think bout two things. time and internet words. lets get on with time first. the thing about me is that, i'm sort of a rpetty punctual guy. and when it comes down to time management, i pretty got myself in pretty good shape here. i'll get my shit done no matter what, i'll reach places in a certain given time that i say i would, i wouldn't give uncertain answers if there's no assurance regarding an outing and yea time related stuff on most account. so yea i am pretty turned off whenever people just not showing up on time. thats the shit that i hate the most. I HATE WAITING. I ALWAYS DOES! i got tons of patience in a lot of stuff and yea i don't mind waiting if its like 10 minutes to 20 minutes. but sometimes, some people have the courtesy to just delay their arrival for one and sometimes 2 fuckin hours! what happened to yea i'll see you in a while. does in a while means 1 hour? its drives me mad whenever your just chilling at wherever your ass is at and just waiting. and its very disruptive towards conversation flow and your own concentration. coz you all you'll ever do is that, turning your head to a particular direction and constantly hoping that man faster show up la. i always think to myself especially being a business student, man if this is a contract signing session, you'll fucking blew it man. yea i understand there are some circumstances that might be applicable to the delay but yea i'm tired now, so i'll say this....NO TOLERANCE!!!1!!

another thing that i can't stand is people with the word haiz on the internet. FUCK THAT SHIT. FUCK IT GAO GAO. people who uses haiz to me just sounded like losers man. there's this one particular girl where she was having exam and she says something like haiz exam. and then holiday comes shes likes haiz nothing to do. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man i sort of have the tendency to deal my problems if its with a girl by forcing her to bend over and just humping the sense out of her. must see face first. so yea thats about it. goodnighte.

Friday, August 6, 2010

thoughts:2 awesome guys

i've been writing a lot of shit lately and i've sort of finish writing whatever that i'm supposed to write. well thats because i've been into so many shit lately. can't say its negative or positive. it is sort of both. and by shit i don't mean only problem, some are good experiences too. i mean those shit are accumulation of feelings, transfers, separation, examination, people and etc. i kinda got a lot to swallow in these days. but the good thing is that, i'm shutting them out one by one and i'm a free man. so it kinda gave me a clearance to just try something new. and i tried something new yesterday.s omething that i had never done before. and thats socialization with someone who is already working and drinking beer in a place where there's great performers. it was like after slash concert and we kinda hit it at some bar in tropicana mall call artista.

it was my first time and fuck it was fuckin awesome. drinking some beer that i'm new to called killkenny and listening to these two performers who are father(lolen) and son(musa). now the highlight of the night wasn't slash's concert to me. i was personally touched by them. by their story. they are one of the most wonderful people i've ever met man. very humble rockers. and let met tell you why.....

so we went there, and then these two performers who are strictly acoustic performers were performing a series of classic rock stuff. their main genre is that and man they play so fucking good acoustics man. they kinda wanna be labelled as just pure acoustics. both of them are thin, and they have that rock and roll hair and they are really good. and me not being in the scene i would have no idea what kinda person they really are. so they took a break, and then the father came over and shook my hand and so did the son. i was like oh cool. i didn't know he actually came and did that. and then they just sat down with us and we drink beer and we talk. its so fucking cool, all 5 of us plays the guitar and all 5 of us are so understanding on where we came from in terms of music.
one of the things we talk about is that, fuck if you talk about classic rock and playing just pure guitars, all they will say is just that its noise and shit. its horrible. play something like gaga or something. lolen is a funny guy man he was talking to me so fuckin close to my face which i'm cool wiht it, but then it became even more weird when he speaks directly to my ear. oh he was aweosme. he told me, not to give up in rock and roll man. to play the guitar you gotta play from the heart and soul. oh it was awesome man. never had a rocker touched me so much before. no homo. musa on the other hand is only fuckin 19 years old and both of them are like shredding with acoustics man. thats fucking hard. its just fuckin hard. learn a lot of shit with stage fright through his tellings.

now the awesome part besides teh performance is that, man the dad is like trying hard to land a deal for his son who is still young. they ain't got no stereo at home. dad been jobless for6 years because all he ever did and wanan do is just to be an entertainer. and the guy who went with us has a studio as part of the company. and the dad was just trying to do all he can for his son. to make him have a better future. he said he can be a sessionist and his son can be the star. he needs an opportunity. and its a fucking tough world. no father would wanan see his son to go through what he goes through. another tough part of the business that edmund the guy who has the studio strongly beleives they are talented and they are really good. classic rock and all but then if you wanan make it in the business, then you have to sell out. you gotta play pop rock, you gotta sacrifice your image and you gotta go clean if you wanna go mainstream. thats the difference between what you like and what other people like.

and thats the first time i get a first hand view on doing business in a casual environment. you gotta use your words carefully eventhough your half drunk. you can't give empty promises man. alright blogging this, i'm sort of tipsy. so i didn't exactly refine what i said. but overall those two guys are fuckin awesome.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

thoughts:this is an appreciation post

yeap this post is another me being confused and shit post......yea if you..yes you....you there been reading my blog for soem time, you probably knew about the post where i talk about goin to the states after the pr approval bla bla bla. so yea here i am again. talking about it. whats with the repetition? well thats because in the previous post, a bunch of us from the Chew family only got approved and no decisions were made and this time around....some of the decisions are made....my family wasn't part of it......but we were about to and this is where i'm in a big ole dilemma again....

in just about 3 weeks later or something, probably less than 3, my cousin and his family plus an aunty will be flying over there for over one year just to be approved of being an american. in that period cousins would be studying and stuff like that you know just basically living the life there. no statements regarding the parents. so yea basically they are about to start college and school there. good for them. so basically they are still on the road towards determining the path to be taken. me? i'm at that divider right now man. i couldn't even see the road sign before i reach the turning. and now i'm like just standing right in front of that divider not knowing where to go.

my dad, mom and i are taking a 1 year of extension and really, all eyes are on me because my folks are just doing this for me. my sister used to be a part of this but she passed that age limit and she's forfeited so yea now its all depending on me. going there is a means to developing my future. and we're takign that extension due to the period of me finishing college which falls within that one year. by the time i finishes i'll still be eligible and valid to move over and that is what i'm thinking so much now...look i finished my college...whcih means the path of starting my life as a full adult is taking off. and i just need to be there for one year to be verified as an american. then this gives me two choices of country to settle down. look its not like i'm hating that i have to leave and all, its sort of like a love hate kinda thing you know.... i know i'm still young and i tell myself that...i need to go over.....

so that one year, what can i do? should i just waste my time and try to do something that i used to thought impossible? maybe getting into mainstream music? lol... or get into the acting industry....wo not bad oh suddenly i'm like another michelle yeoh.....suddenly you walk passed the mall and see my huge face with small eyes plastered onto the wall...*i'm just fantasizing okay?!*i don't know man... i just don't know...how am i gonan make friends anywyas? i'm not belonging in a community man...no school no college....i suppose i can just walk up to a street and say hi to random people......the confusion......the uncertainty...i don't even know what am i writing. i'mt hat confused....

i guess moving over there for a minimal period of 1 year is inevitable since i kinda wanna go there....and this brings me to the main point of this post eventhough its kinda short for being the gist....i appreciate so many people now. specifically people....my close ones...the one that i'm cherishing now.....the people that i don't get to meet often....owh man....wilson,chor yuen,kin yew...looks like i'm the scropion when the time comes.....everyone needs to pick that title up.owh man..i dunno what to say...i just wanna go out...but owh man your busy with your work, your busy with your assignment, your busy with cooking....i know there's like still one year...man this sucks...and i'm like cherishing this one person i had so much fun with right now...man i've never written and emo post before.....not emo now just a lil confused...i am literally trap in this quicksand whcih slowly sucks me in and i'm not even resisting it....i'm not seeing this from a good light..

Sunday, June 20, 2010

thoughts: blinded by recognition

so yea it was father's day today and my family and i had celebrated that yesterday but still we went out again today to like you know just hang out and have some family time. so as usual being the youngest and usually have less power in a conversation (when your the youngest you can only be a supporter in conversations and hardly the trigger. that kinda sucks but oh well)so i'll usually listen only. well i had my ipod with me but it was a small car and i could hear what they were saying. so the conversation is about my dad wanted to go watch prince of persia at MBO in desa petaling. and both of my sisters who are the reason why i blog about this post responded with reasons that i think is legitimately dumb.

see my two sisters unlike me, gives way too much shit on brands, what other people think, very want face those type of people and you know basically blinded by materializm, recognition, brands you know those qualities of show off. and here's some of the reasons they say...."wah if people see me at there, i will very no face", "isn't midvalley closer ?(compared to desa petaling when we are living in seri petaling","i rather spend 12 bucks just to see a movie at a better cinema" and etc. now here's the thing they have never been to MBO and they are judging the book by its freaking goddam cover. i mean really? spending 12 bucks for the same movie while you can spend 9? its not bout the money comparison but its more towards teh logic .even i've not been there. so why not try it? what is so painful in trying new things?

so one of my sister went and we walked in. bounded by her stereotypical judgment on how the book's content is based on its cover, she was silent by the actual place is. yea sure there's like 10% of room for complain but hey i fell in love with that place man. i think its the perfect place to go to during the weekdays and i've never wanted to watch movies so much eversince today. and btw prince of persia is 5stars to me. fucking awesome. whats more awesome is that,in that cinema, only 10 people were occupying it. so think bout weekdays!!!!have to go back there. and its cheap too.

ok back to the topic. yea i can't stand some people who are not rich but tries to pretend to be rich by "oh i only go to this place, oh i can only go to these kinda stalls". i mean like really? are you serious? i mean hey my family is not uber rich neither were poor but still i'm sort of disgusted by these people behave at times. not pissed but disgusted. so have any of you 3 to 1 readers encounter people like these? even those people that likes to say oh i was in this club at that time, i was in that event (when they are not!!!)

note* lazy to edit my grammar and whatever. wants to haz dinnaz